I'm gonna stay 18 forever

friendsxguns @ 2007-06-19T22:26:00

2007-06-20T02:31:56Z

so just went down.
ii saw red: k so remember that time when i said i liked you
JefF09695: yea
ii saw red: well basically i still do and i feel like a big idiot because i know you said you didnt like me but i dont know, i guess it just feels like theres something there
ii saw red: and i wrote out this whole long thing to say to you
ii saw red: but now it doesnt seem like its gonna explain it right
ii saw red: but ok
ii saw red: remember the other week
ii saw red: when i was just sitting there & i wasnt talking or anything
JefF09695: ummm
JefF09695: lol no
ii saw red: k well anyways
ii saw red: yeah it was just a really bad day
ii saw red: but then, as soon as i started talking to you, things were better again and i know that sounds absolutely rediculous
ii saw red: i dont know where this is going really, but i guess i just felt like...you said you didnt like me...but then it kinda seemed like you did...
JefF09695: look i like you
JefF09695: but as a friend
JefF09695: liek
JefF09695: im really like flirtatious n stuff like without trying to be
JefF09695: n that sounded wrong
JefF09695: but thats just how i act
ii saw red: alright
JefF09695: i mean i dont mean to lead you on
JefF09695: i guess thats just how i am
JefF09695: n i dont want to stop talking to you
ii saw red: :-\
JefF09695: its just idn how to act any other way
ii saw red: yeah i get it
JefF09695: ok
JefF09695: well anytime you want on for bp just holler
JefF09695: but i really gotta go
ii saw red: cant dont have your number haha
JefF09695: lol
ii saw red: alright peace
JefF09695: i have yours dont worry
ii saw red: ps keep this on the downlow por favor
JefF09695: adios
ii saw red: byyye

and now, i don't know what to do.
i'm honestly laughing about the fact that after i poured my heart out & he shot me down, he actually had the nerve to bring up us playing beer pong in the near future. FUCK. THAT. SHIT.

friendsxguns @ 2005-07-22T15:35:00

2005-07-22T19:36:06Z

i deleted a bunch of you because:
a) i don't comment
b) you don't comment
c) you haven't updated in 5685475 days

<3

friendsxguns @ 2004-12-31T23:31:00

2005-01-01T08:06:59Z

resolutions:
no drama
no problems
no tears
no heart ache
happiness
i can try my hardest.

new years is like birthdays. you get soooo excited then onces it comes, you don't feel like anything happened. but i think this year will be 10 million times better than last year for 10 million reasons. i think jacob and I are going back to the angus&helen days and i like everything except being 1104 miles away from conrad.

but lets recall this year in short words:
mount view, yetter, texas, warped tour, being a mall rat, george, us history prd. 6, justins party, switchfoot, 3.50, john kerry, california, new friends, glen elg, boat trip, dance, homecoming, gordi, eric lang, angus, sid, angelo, cancer, klatte, kenzi/pru, knives, cigarettes, 20, justin, heartbroken, postal service, asain, indian, sharina love, pizza after school, FAME!, sitting, the perks of being a wallflower, cobain 10, fitz p, laguna beach.

friendsxguns @ 2004-08-03T21:09:00

2004-08-04T02:16:52Z

everyone come see me in FAME on august 18/19 7 PM at resivour high school.

friendsxguns @ 2004-07-03T04:57:00

2004-07-03T10:07:39Z

WE'RE LEAVING FOR NYC IN LIKE 3.002394 SECONDS. WE'RE WAITING FOR MUH SISTUH. IM GONNA MISS YOU GUYS
ILL BE BACK ON LIKE...MONDAY NIGHTISH
SHOUT A HOLLER 4432804303

friendsxguns @ 2004-01-09T19:36:00

2004-01-10T00:39:09Z